packed my bags and I'm waiting to travel to a place that will serve as my home i don't want to be going there really but i have to leave my comfort zone settle in i'm supposed to adapt now i'm just one of a group who is here have my own room and yes it it's blessing couldn't share as i will whilst I'm near so i wander around meeting spirits better that, than to be drinking the same face is flushed and my body is sweating as i try to remember the names let's just start the proceedings and get on with the purpose why I am sequestered no one here it appears lives as threatening and my meals are just what i requested every day there's a group I attend two in my face stranger asks me upfront do i want to continue my descent or take options that handle the brunt as the sun sets i lay, nestle reading relieved that it's one day that's done but i know there is still a tomorrow i can't say that the prospect is fun on the phone i impart to my parents what has happened within 24 keep a journal to scrawl what i'm feeling this is territory I'm not so sure i've heard that miracles can happen every day i'd love one to arrive and then it come my way but it only serves a purpose if it's here to stay i don't think i can change unless it paves the way the mirror keeps on telling me i'm bound to fail my will is great but i can always feel the jail i'm living life that's threatening death and then entail i am the weakest spirit who will stay as frail in here they're pushing something that i feels beyond the grasp of living life that has the stillest pond you can't inspire magic and just wave the wand i doubt i have the strength to kill what isn't fond but early days it is and i will stay the course i've nothing left to lose that hasn't met divorce the pleasing thing so far is that i'm using force participating in the things that might enforce something new go outside taste the sun with the smokers play guitar that is there sigh relief all the eyes on the faces assembled range wide in their pain and the grief it's the one thing i hoped could imagine and i know that i am among friends the new map in my hands now is teaching that there are subtle means to the ends another day another humbling assembly one more eybrow i raise to the scene i am thinking that just might be something i could add to my life that has been it isn't breaking back of mine i expected that i'm getting something out of each every chat the figures looking good and yes and so's the stat i'm taking with me little glimpse i don't combat the mirror keeps on telling me i'm bound to fail my will is great but i can always feel the jail i'm living life that's threatening death and then entail i am the weakest spirit who will stay as frail it's never more apparent when you've lost the plot feeling immolated like that i've been shot taking money out and emptying every pot i guess it's time to see i might give all i've got i've heard that miracles can happen every day i'd love one to arrive and then it come my way but it only serves a purpose if it's here to stay i don't think i can change unless it paves the way i see you something new something true i know you i want you please come true i want you

race creed colour sex no-one is spared culture belief painting text we can be scared black white yellow green every colour in between city country background scene each player on every team solemn scarred tortured serene all emotions they count to you i'm scum just dumb you don't know now or then who i am no way you can use drink forever think get in line for a taste of the waste i was never yours "don't even think it" to you i'm scum just dumb you don't know now or then who i am and you have the hide to judge my pride in here no-one does that anyday of the week they just let you speak let you tell the side of the storyline it's nice to have an ear no-one in here does anything but help you get ready for part two not me not you i know what to do they've given me clues no longer do i have to lose i think i've got it they've given me clues

all aboard for the bus now boarding the engine growls let's get sailing there's no price no obligation the boarding bell's rung for ailing by the lake we disembark and we gather in groups under the blue sun is warmed up pelicans are flying by thunder has flew sitting with a smoke company, we share a joke going for a walk having a talk reflecting on the thing that has taught us we are all there swimming in the same waters i wasn't planning on going for this ride but my Mum convinced me to so thankful i did participate in sharing this outing under the blue sun is warmed up pelicans are flying by thunder has flew sitting with a smoke company, we share a joke going for a walk having a talk reflecting on the things that has taught us we are all there swimming in the same waters swimming in the same waters

my career i've worked for years it earned me nothing i just lost promoted it free of apology top of the charts and with a bullet the same shell mean't for my head one of these days the people reckon i'll wake up dead outside my room there is a bookshelf it's all fiction except one humble cover letter embossed on blue i took it opened it up and read some chapters one of which really amplified filled in blanks and illustrated change it was a shock i'm great at descending not so good in ascending too much i've been depending i'm tired of descending might try some ascending i can't go on depending attended group i shared the story the pages my mind it transcribed gladly expressed what it said to me in form so warm now it's theme i've held collected shot it up into my soul the perishables i can throw away not bits but whole i'm great at descending not so good in ascending too much i've been depending i'm tired of descending might try some ascending i can't go on depending

far and away the common thought is it's over but every day could be murder if I don't partake and lapse in vigilance then I am liable to stay a herder i know the road will wind must not take my sight off the prize far and away i've learned my addiction's bigger than me and we cannot stay involved now every day i wake to sense and know my friends and none of them do me harm i know the road will wind must not take my sight off the prize and why ? that evil life unkind don't want it back for the life of me so i have to deny that sip it'll rip my soul right through my skin comply instead i'll just imbibe the sober without her i don't want to live like that anymore no more that's for sure no more

this intensity is killing me when all i want is to be free found our faith in pots and the pans before it went and made other plans i have lived and died thousand deaths pain suppressed and struggled for breaths i'm keeping my secrets to myself they don't belong to you nor me sometimes it's true wasted and I loved it to death that life was something that i caressed choices weren't hard to make when clean time mean't all others could take i have lived and died thousand deaths pain suppressed and struggled for breaths i'm keeping my secrets to myself they don't belong to you nor me sometimes it's true they deserve to know they say but fuck you there is no way this intensity is killing me when all i want is to be free found our faith in pots and the pans before it went and made other plans i have lived and died thousand deaths pain suppressed and struggled for breaths i'm keeping my secrets to myself they don't belong to you nor me sometimes it's true they deserve to know they say but fuck you there is no way

i won't let pain get in my way instead get peace to define my day unexpected return i can feel my legs now so much more to learn you can't know how thankful i am unless you're the rare ones who remained galvanized i'm strong I can see through my eyes it's Jason singing a song it's now light feels so right i never thought i'd get to be relive this version that was me it's been a while 'should see me smile i never felt i'd get to see the life i used to have and lead it took it's time the future's mine i won't let pain subscribe to my soul forge calm set in motion all that unfolds galvanized i'm strong I can see through my eyes it's Jason singing a song it's now light feels so right i never thought i'd get to be relive this version that was me it's been a while 'should see me smile i never felt i'd get to see the life i used to have and lead it took it's time the future's mine i never thought i'd get to be relive this version that IS me it's been a while 'should see me smile i never felt i'd get to see the life i used to have and lead it took some time the future's mine it blows my mind it blows my mind have i said that it blows my mind ? that's mine

JFT i'm in a bad place today so what ? i'm used to that anyway i'm in a mindset today so what ? i'm trial and error today it's not new it's always that way every day i'm in a sad state today so what ? so we're at the start of something seems to be quite big and the log is now a branch cut to the size of a twig got to see that i'll make it through this stay as they just for today i'm in a bad place today so what ? i'm used to that anyway i'm in a mindset today so what ? i'm trial and error it's not new it'a always that way every day i'm in a sad state today so what ? so we're at the start of something seems to be quite big and the log is now a branch cut to the size of a twig got to see that i'll make it through this stay as they just for today so what I'm fucked today ? it'll pass that's what happens anyway just plow through all this dismay stand up i've got a reason to stay alive the reasons are countless to claim i'm in a phase that'll sway give way so we're at the start of something seems to be quite big and the log is now a branch cut to the size of a twig got to see that i'll make it through this stay as they just for today J.F.T.

i was released in '73 born warm into the coolest family from then to now it reads a bible size so many shocks with lots of surprise from the womb it starts pencil on the wall it charts how we've grown to size noticing we can disguise if you could do it again would you change anything ? i was reborn in twenty eleven a walking suicide with sins of the seven from the womb it starts pencil on the wall it charts how we've grown to size noticing we can disguise if you could do it again would you change anything ? Own up shuttle forth colours for collecting morph into a wizened soul doesn't matter we're old the heart it doesn't age when everything else hits that stage i was released in '73 born warm into the coolest family from the womb it starts pencil on the wall it charts how we've grown to size noticing we can disguise if you could do it again would you change anything ?

hindsight when you have it explains a torchlight navigating terrains that dictated all we hated and what we wore shot put over fence those neckties that strangled short of breath we realize predilection was our restriction so here i am a year cornered foreign climes it's working so i won't try to fix a thing It's about time Road signs detour shoves you away 4 seasons in an hour they'd play never make up up all our mistakes and so here i am a year cornered foreign climes it's working so i won't try to fix a thing i know what's mine what for i know i can bequeath you more i might die but at least i know what's living these veins blood course fast through my system notched up list of to-do's persistance i won't be prey for your insistence i'll follow go that long distance to seas you should know by now i am happy hindsight is a wonderful thing it grows like sutumn in spring all that i need is sister and father and mother won't you come to me come along with me won't you come to me follow me follow

I got my 12 month tag today i wouldn't have it any other way how it happened i'll never know i guess i went where i wouldn't go I got my 12 month tag today and here's it glowing in the dark it says clean and serene for an entire year i cant explain how it feels in here i'd pass out quarter to three sprawled out on a soakin' settee i had an agenda i kept up for years now i have broken free i got my 12 month tag today if i keep going more are on their way god my friends are the salt of earth a diamond in the rough alert I got my 12 month tag today and here's it glowing in the dark it says clean and serene for an entire year i cant explain how it feels in here chorus i'd pass out quarter to three sprawled out on a soakin' settee i had an agenda i kept up for years now i have broken free just gotta keep the pure humiltity not get too far ahead of the programme i see i had an agenda that i kept for years but it';s gone now i am me i'm free

I GO TO BED NOW WITHOUT A FEAR AND I AWAKE GLAD THAT I’M HERE TO ENJOY THE FRUITS I’VE WORKED SO HARD TO OWN AFTER BEING SO UNHAPPY AND ALONE I’VE GOT A PURPOSE THAT I LOST SO LONG A MILLION MELODIES FOR MY SONG AND THE WORDS LIKE THESE THAT I CAN NOW PRONOUNCE TOUCH THOSE WHO ARE PART OF MY LIFE AND IT'S ANNOUNCED I LOVE TO TELL YOU AND I LIVE TO BE THE TRUEST PART OF WHAT I KNOW IS ME COS I'D LOST THE SIGHT THAT GIVES YOU EVERY DAY A SIGN IT'S NOT JUST MINE IT IS SO SWEET TO FEEL LIKE THIS IT IS THE SWEETEST GIFT TO RECEIVE YOUR KISS WITH THE LIGHT THAT SHINES AND I DON'T MEAN THE SUN NOW THAT I’M BACK HERE LIVING WITH EVERYONE I LOVE TO TELL YOU AND I LIVE TO BE THE TRUEST PART OF WHAT I KNOW IS ME COS I'D LOST THE SIGHT THAT GIVES YOU EVERY DAY A SIGN IT'S NOT JUST MINE

most of our lives we seek approval from those we love even some removed from whatever that we do we fall short so close to home but it's fraught knowing what we can be what we expect from ourselves 'aint always fair criticize our efforts even when we try true no matter if we climb obstacle the mountain it's never enough to hold close to our soul on and far we go abyss/bliss often merging the clouded purpose snows diversions come converging and if we cannot make inroads to wisdom we ask what is the point ? and then we turn our finger minutes into hours days into years then decades gone they sour us oceans of tears shed but deep down we can rise conquer the trappings no longer we surmise navigate new mappings i know by heart that's blame's contagious lives on longer than ourselves passed down through the ages when we fight it that blame no longer enslaves us let go and we're free knowing our true selves sometimes eludes us perceptions of ours skewed pain, it deludes us i'm lucky to have found what i was lacking and now I keep my task there's no more sacking i know by heart that's blame's contagious lives on longer than ourselves passed down through the ages when we fight it that blame no longer enslaves us let go and we're free "WE'RE FREE!" can you hear the rain ? in the background it's here again after so long i know by heart that's blame's contagious lives on longer than ourselves passed down through the ages when we fight it that blame no longer enslaves us let go and we're free to be ourselves resentments gone we say 'so long..' so long