LET'S START AT THE BEGINNING (Music & Lyrics By JSK) packed my bags and I'm waiting to travel to a place that will serve as my home i don't want to be going there really but i have to leave my comfort zone settle in i'm supposed to adapt now i'm just one of a group who is here have my own room and yes it's a blessing couldn't share as - ' i will' - whilst I'm here so i wander around meeting spirits better that, than to be drinking the same face is flushed and my body is sweating as i try to remember the names let's just start the proceedings and get on with the purpose of why I am sequestered no one here it appears lives as threatening and my meals are just what i requested every day there's a group I attend two in my face stranger asks me upfront do i want to continue my descent or take options that handle the brunt as the sun sets i lay, nestle reading relieved that it's one day that's done but i know there is still a tomorrow i can't say that the prospect is fun on the phone i impart to my parents what has happened within 24 keep a journal to scrawl what i'm feeling this is territory I'm not so sure i've heard that miracles can happen every day i'd love one to arrive and then it come my way but it only serves a purpose if it's here to stay i don't think i can change unless it paves the way the mirror keeps on telling me i'm bound to fail my will is great but i can always feel the jail i'm living life that's threatening death and then entail i am the weakest spirit who will stay as frail in here they're pushing something that i feels beyond the grasp of living life that has the stillest pond you can't inspire magic and just wave the wand i doubt i have the strength to kill what isn't fond but early days it is and i will stay the course i've nothing left to lose that hasn't met divorce the pleasing thing so far is that i'm using force participating in the things that might enforce something new go outside taste the sun with the smokers play guitar that is there sigh relief all the eyes on the faces assembled range wide in their pain and the grief it's the one thing i hoped could imagine and i know that i am among friends the new map in my hands now is teaching that there are subtle means to the ends another day another humbling assembly one more eyebrow i raise to the scene i am thinking there just might be something i could add to my life that has been it isn't breaking back of mine i expected that i'm getting something out of each and every chat the figures looking good and yes and so's the stat i'm taking with me little glimpses i don't combat the mirror keeps on telling me i'm bound to fail my will is great but i can always feel the jail i'm living life that's threatening death and then entail i am the weakest spirit who will stay as frail it's never more apparent when you've lost the plot feeling immolated like i've been shot taking money out and emptying every pot i guess it's time to see i might give all i've got i've heard that miracles can happen every day i'd love one to arrive and then it come my way but it only serves a purpose if it's here to stay i don't think i can change unless it paves the way i see you something new something true i know you i want you please come true i want you

i wish i was eleven instead of what i am i wish i was in heaven then i would understand then i wouldn't worry then i wouldn't swear for if i sat with angels i'd bathe without a care they wish they were eleven instead of who they are they wish they were eleven and close the door ajar we think if we're eleven our pain it would dissolve but it is an illusion the same things would involve us.... live on eleven live on eleven live long live on eleven it's gone eleven we're not eleven time to find our new heaven

i'm not expecting you to agree that's not an equation that we'll ever see but at least you could make some slight concession because your daughter's crying it's not a handle we'll ever get to grips no programme running adequately equips but at least you might endeavour to make an impression now that your daughter's crying you destroyed your foray each and every day employed a life for losing in every way now you sit upon our shoulders weight to carry perhaps you think i can't but i do and i will 'cause i have i'm not supposing that you'll ever see the torment that you let loose inside of me be damned if you just didn't crush up my compassion and now you've got me crying it's not a handle we'll ever get to grips no programme running adequately equips it was and maybe the greatest ever transgression when you left us there crying you destroyed your foray each and every day employed a life for losing in every way now you sit upon our shoulders weight to carry perhaps you think i can't but i do and i will 'cause i have

race creed colour sex no-one is spared culture belief painting text we can be scared black white yellow green every colour in between city country background scene each player on every team solemn scarred tortured serene all emotions they count to you i'm scum just dumb you don't know now or then who i am no way you can use drink forever think get in line for a taste of the waste i was never yours "don't even think it" to you i'm scum just dumb you don't know now or then who i am and you have the hide to judge my pride in here no-one does that anyday of the week they just let you speak let you tell the side of the storyline it's nice to have an ear no-one in here does anything but help you get ready for part two not me not you i know what to do they've given me clues no longer do i have to lose i think i've got it they've given me clues

all aboard for the bus now boarding the engine growls let's get sailing there's no price no obligation the boarding bell's rung for ailing by the lake we disembark and we gather in groups under the blue sun is warmed up pelicans are flying by thunder has flew sitting with a smoke in company, we share a joke going for a walk having a talk reflecting on the thing that has taught us we are all there swimming in the same waters i wasn't planning on going for this ride but my Mum convinced me to so thankful i did participate in sharing this outing under the blue sun is warmed up pelicans are flying by thunder has flew sitting with a smoke in company, we share a joke going for a walk having a talk reflecting on the things that has taught us we are all there swimming in the same waters swimming in the same waters

i want to save everyone save us from ourselves i wish i could intervene but i 'aint God i'm with you all the way i'll never let you stay alone no matter what thing comes my way what ever i can be the very least i have is yours i wish i could heal a part take away your fear i'm kinda' caught in the crossroads just trying to save myself i'm with you all the way i'll never let you stay alone no matter what thing comes my way what ever i can be the very least i have is yours i'm with you all the way i'll never let you stay alone no matter what thing comes my way i'll always be there i'm with you all the way i'll never let you play alone no matter what sins come my way what ever i can be the very least i have is yours is yours "and i mean it" i wish i could save just one of you if i could i would

my career i've worked for years it earned me nothing i just lost promoted it free of apology top of the charts and with a bullet the same shell mean't for my head one of these days the people reckon i'll wake up dead outside my room there is a bookshelf it's all fiction except one humble cover letter embossed on blue i took it opened it up and read some chapters one of which really amplified filled in blanks and illustrated change it was a shock i'm great at descending not so good in ascending too much i've been depending i'm tired of descending might try some ascending i can't go on depending attended group i shared the story the pages my mind it transcribed gladly expressed what it said to me in form was so warm now it's theme i've held collected shot it up into my soul the perishables i can throw away not bits but whole not bits but whole i'm great at descending not so good in ascending too much i've been depending i'm tired of descending might try some ascending i can't go on depending

one way to escape is try simpler still it is to die sometimes it's so hard to breathe let alone believe must face and channel light admit that we disgrace one why is enough to assist what can inspire so much we hear comes secondhand then it stays a rumour panned impossible to open doors ignoring our remorse head falls down speak monotone my inmates they feel so alone it makes me see what i possess indeed i now address want to escape so now i will try no longer hope that i will die the aforementioned secondhand sought the fact now understand please stay i'd hate for you to end up going away please love don't give up as hard it is to keep your head above the water that is there that tries to drag us down

knock at my door they want my room it has been the setting within it i have bloomed and yes i'm stressed that i can confess is this the beginning of the end my head believes it i can't pretend i go for a walk pen ink on the pages i've realized i could be tempted to stay for ages maybe it's time (yep) maybe it's time to go i'm going home to set this thing rollin' my doctor thinks it's a little premature i'd not walk if i wasn't truly sure i calm nerves they see life serves that it's brought me to this place of certainty i fill in the forms tick the box make statement thanking them for the roof that gave me placement and set me up gave me the chance to be i'm going home to set the ball rollin' my doctor thinks it's a little premature i'd not walk if i wasn't truly sure faces frown i seem down i insist i'm a man who is really fine got my tools and i'm ready to define myself i'm going home to get it all goin' my doctor sees that it isn't premature he believes i can make it out the door say goodbye with some i cry numbers swapped paper clippings for email stay in touch for i know we can prevail one last look i pack my book the blue one which helped me find the freedom fire now it's truth never want to be a liar i'm picked up smiling true luck how time flies when you're changing what you see a miracle has been sowed and now it's up to me it's up to me it's up to me it's up to me

far and away the common thought is it's over but every day could be murder if I don't partake and lapse in vigilance then I am liable to stay a herder i know the road will wind must not take my sight off the prize far and away i've learned my addiction's bigger than me and we cannot stay involved now every day i wake to sense and know my friends and none of them do me harm me harm i know the road will wind must not take my sight off the prize and why ? that evil life unkind don't want it back for the life of me so i have to deny that sip it'll rip my soul right through my skin comply instead i'll just imbibe the sober without her i don't want to live like that anymore no more that's for sure no more

far and away the common thought is it's over but every day could be murder if I don't partake and lapse in vigilance then I am liable to stay a herder i know the road will wind must not take my sight off the prize far and away i've learned my addiction's bigger than me and we cannot stay involved now every day i wake to sense and know my friends and none of them do me harm me harm i know the road will wind must not take my sight off the prize and why ? that evil life unkind don't want it back for the life of me so i have to deny that sip it'll rip my soul right through my skin comply instead i'll just imbibe the sober without her i don't want to live like that anymore no more that's for sure no more